sh

she is here

darkness solidifies the ability to think

hello

Ah you’re here! HERE?! YOU?!

we need your help

Did you say something about darkness just now?

it solidifies

… the ability to think!!! Right! Yes, yes, this is true. And maybe hey, maybe the logic behind this might have something to do with how the lack of incoming stimuli decouples the sense receptors from some neuronal cluster or whatever, effectively murdering the external world for all you bloody well know, you MONSTER.

calm down

But okay, maybe that’s not really it at all.

listen

Have you ever thought about fear of the dark? I have a theory; it goes something like this. Darkness, for all intents and purposes, severs the link between inner and outer reality. Now don’t get it twisted okay, flinchie?! This ain’t like the logic thing you just read a few lines ago, ya FOOL. What I’m talking about here is ALIVE. LIVING, ya dig me? It’s a breathing, pulsating thing that consumes what you perceive to be your experience of the external world and forces you to flee into the domain within. But of course since you’re all high and mighty master of READING WORDS or some such, let’s go with the ol’ frickin “Master Logician” tract; tat ol’ chestnut about how the inability to see stuff deactivates your sense of vision blablabla. Here’s the point there, skippy; when you’re in a relatively small space before the lights go out, it’s easy enough for your mind to project some sort of vague mental scaffolding based on whatever your last impression of the surrounding totality happens to be. This usually gives you an out, a sort of escape hatch if you will, that brings you either to some other place with light or a way out of the darkness.

thats enough

But what if the darkness you are in is deep?

you need to stop

Some darkness is deeper than others.

you are not helping

Then, this all changes.

we need to focus

For in this situation, escape slips away. You might of course still know, intellectually, that there must be a way out, somehow; it just so happens to be slightly too far away for you to reasonably calculate and so any attempts at recreating it within the mind falls flat. Whether this turns out to be true or not, the outcome is effectively the same. You feel something altogether different from the effect of a shallow darkness.

listen to me

Have you ever stopped to think that the problem is not the darkness itself, but your very fleeing from it? Because here’s the thing.

you need to stop

Your senses never just shut off completely.

are

Even if there is nothing to see, nothing to feel, nothing to hear, touch, taste or smell, your senses cannot be turned off like a switch has been flipped.

are

What happens instead is that, understanding that they will get nowhere on the outside, they turn themselves inward.

are you infected

This is why so many people who have become addicted to entertainment fear the dark- which, of course, is just another metaphor for themselves. They have become weakened through their excessive use and reliance on the external, the material, the fiction without. This leaves them ill-equipped for the sudden drop into their own consciousness. Inside yourself, you cannot escape the things you run from. There is no radio to turn on just to have background voices, no other to talk to or about. The voices here are just a little bit too real and raw for you. They want to speak of deeper things, things you’ve been running from, things you’ve been hiding from.

oh no

And so it’s natural for the conscious mind to slip into that all-too familiar labeling mode and say NOPE! Not for me! Darkness is bad!

But of course things are never that simple.

oh no

Perhaps it might make more sense if you view darkness as pain. If you face it and let it be, either it goes away altogether in time or you grow to not fear it. And much like pain, it is in the darkness that you find answers.

its

Perhaps then, it is much more fair to say that you do not fear darkness; you fear the possibility of getting answers to questions you did not want to know you had.

too late

When you flee into your little scattered world in search of your next hit of dopamine, remember this; the farther you run from your inner self, the longer the journey back will be.

for her

And the journey back is not just one that can happen, could or should happen, might or must happen.

we need to go

It is the only journey that absolutely will happen.

now